Psalm 37:4 states, "Delight in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart."
Last night "Mama T" shared that with us as we celebrated a new life that is about to join the world and our church family. One of our Sisters in Christ at Open Door could have her baby any day now. In our Bible study group there have been quite a few pregnacies that definitely came on God's timing and no one else's. As I listened to T explain what Psalm 37:4 meant, I couldn't help but drop a few tears.
It is my desire to bring a Russian orphan into America. Not because I believe God has put America up on a pedestal. He hasn't. Israel is still His chosen nation. (See Romans 9). But the U.S.A. is a great nation to live in. Whenever I feel my rights are being violated against what the Constitution says, I have to remind myself what people face in other countries. We should be thankful for the freedoms we have, but still know what the Bible teaches about humility, self-sacrifice and persecution.
Sorry, I kind of got off on a tanget there. Back to delighting in the LORD.
I sat there listening to T explain that when you delight in the LORD on a daily bases, He changes your desires. It is my prayer that if His will is not for us to adopt from Russia, that he will change our desires. But I can't help but assume for now that He is the one who put the desire in our hearts to begin with. This time a year ago, I would have never entertained the thought of being on an airplane over the Atlantic ocean for 8 hours.
There are days when I feel that we will never come up with $50,000. I try to imagine us adopting through DHR, then quickly something tells me that is not what we are supposed to do.
So I am asking that you pray for us. Pray that if this is not the direction God wants us to go, that He will change our desire.
On another note, I want to share something Raine (our 3 year old) said the other night. There have been many occassions where she informs us that she wants a sister. We explain that if we adopt from Russia, there is a high chance it will be a boy. She keeps informing us that she already has a brother and wants a sister. Then, the other night she said, "I want a sister that is my age." My heart melted!